...Solitary...

unanswered questions
dreamed alone at 10:44 p.m. on 2007-10-19

hrmmm

i thought i was past that

on good days i don't care. on bad days i feel completely taken for granted. i'm not sure what today is. i'm also not sure when good days became days when feelings were scarce.

why do i feel like i'm making my life more complicated than it has to be

i see what you mean now - it really is much easier that way. but how do you get rid of the lingering rays of hope? do they go away eventually?

its kinda like i'm one of the crayons in your box. the neon pink one that you loved for awhile and used all the time. then maybe you grew up, or you decided that maybe neon pink wasn't your colour. so you switched to blue, forgetting all about the neon pink that was once your favourite. maybe one day you'll look at it and go, 'what was i thinking?'. who knows? and its the neon pink crayon that's left in the box collecting dust and wondering when it was and why it was that it fell from favour.

you killed me. its official. lawr has killed me. research binder is the foulest thing on the planet right now omg. although i have developed a liking for the library. its so massive and big and you can actually feel the history of the place, especially when you look at the books from like the 1600s. haha. but bloody bloody binder omg i can't wait for it to be over.

watching korean dramas on crunchyroll is no good for me. haha. it makes me sleep late. and it's so awfully sad when i watch i end up crying but i don't know why. hrm but i must say kopi's song hye gyo is really v pretty. and won bin is hot. and i dunno the other guy's name but he's hot too. and yes i'm watching an ancient show. haha. wah tragic tragic.

its time to start sleeping more!